if you catch me... come and settle me...

today is a very sad day for me.

i am finally giving up something that i held on and fought for, for almost a year now.

i am finally giving him up.

an irony... for he was never mine, i was never his.

what we had was just an understanding between 2 adults who lived on both sides of the earth, who met by chance. and had that profound connection...

we tried to build from it, thinking that we could probably go against the time, the space and the distance between us. but i guess we have both failed and finally allowed hopelessness to consume us.

i feel it is time to let go. i dont know if its the right thing to do...

but although it hurts (big time) i had no regrets. and as the cliche goes, i will survive.

maybe it was never meant to be...

but if it is... then it is...

and so be it.

P.S. i am now officiali single again *lols*

~ blow me away ~ geri lamented [+] Monday, 31st of January 2005, 19:25 pm

i feel like banging my head on the wall T-T i just got a hundred dollar parking fine -- for parking on a no stopping zone waaaaaaa, i know i know, its pretty lame and pretty stupid, but ive been parking there for the last 6 months everytime i go to my kung fu and i had been lucky until tonite obviously *sniff*

a few weeks ago, i also got a 60 dollar parking fine, now its gone up to a hundred. ive outdone myself (yeah right!) my fines getting bigger and bigger and im getting poorer.

so if your feeling generous or rich... donations are open 24/7, you can always pledge here (visa accepted) hahahaha, just kidding.

oh well, shit happens -_-

i wonder what parking fine im gonna get next time.

~ blow me away ~ geri lamented [+] Friday, 28th of January 2005, 21:42 pm

i went to my friends auntie to celebrate 'australia day' and had a ball!!! we were supposed to go to burswood (as ive mentioned earlier) but we didnt get the barbeque going until past 7pm (the fireworks start at 8) coz obviously the food was more important, true... how can one enjoy watching a show with an empty stomach anyway?

since we were running out of time, we decided to just climb up their shed, and watch from d roof. climbing is one of my forte, thats why even with my heels on, i didnt have any problems hehe. but poor mavic, shes so scared of heights, most of us were up d roof olridi so she didnt have much choice but climb up as well and face her fears. (she did by the way) its one of those situations, were you just loose your poise no matter, but as usual, that didnt stop us from taking pictures of ourselves ahahaha, i think even if we're probably drowning or something like that, we'd still b taking pictures if we can (how vain) kekekek!

the big budgeted fireworks display was nothing mind blowing -- its almost d same as d one from last year and the year b4 that and the year before that and so on, if u know what i mean *sighs* i think d organizers are running out of ideas too :P

and worse its back to work tomorrow, this aussie day had to be on a wednesday, middle of d week, why they didnt move it on a friday beats me -- oh well, i still have something to look forward to this weekend... were going to Adventure World! *yehey* the thought excites me olridi ^-^ ladida...

~ blow me away ~ geri lamented [+] Wednesday, 26th of January 2005, 23:55 pm

yey! ive finali updated "d blog!" and as uve probably noticed, ive done some renovations -- not that much though as i am running out of ideas lately, must be sign of old age hahaha.

anyways, its good to be blogging again. ive been terribly busy with a lot of things, but its always nice to blog and see your messages, it makes me feel like i still have contact from the outside world. *sniff* .

the month of january is almost about to end now, and it just amazes me how its gone quick... next thing i know im 30 olridi -_- so many things happen in weeks time, hmmn by end of this month, i mite just end up heartbroken or something... i'll survive i suppose, oh but i did manage to make some new years resolution, originally there were 10, but now its down to 6. id be ecstatic if i can keep 4. maybe ask me again in 12 months time!

oh, it's Australia Day today!!! 'aussie, aussie, aussie, oi, oi, oi'
i pay homage to my second country -- may its people and its land be blessed for always. i will be watching the fireworks display up at burswood tonite with marissa, bryan, and mavic, my parents didnt feel like going so im just gonna tag along with them. and earlier i was watching the quarterfinals of the Australian Open, and im a litol sad coz Alicia Molik didnt win today, but shes done well, i hope she wins next time, you go girl!

im outta here (for now) hello hello everyone!!! ill blog some more later.

~ blow me away ~ geri lamented [+] Wednesday, 26th of January 2005, 13:12 pm