i saw you watching me... sip my cup of tea...

im singing again.

the former musical director of my church decided to form a group playing mainly latin beat music, and im lucky enough to be part of it and be the only girl among 3 talented musos. one of them is a very good singer & guitarists from brazil and has already done some recordings before. we are apparently playing on the 13th of april. and i will be singing a mix of english and portuguese, no falo portuguese :P but im quite excited.

we had our first rehearsals tonight, and when they asked me to sing a song, i was soo nervous, i could hardly hear my voice when i started singing. i didnt do well unlike when i was practicing alone, but they said they liked my voice, i dont know whether they just said that to make me feel better, but they did notice i was nervous (super) and intimidated. they advised i should just belt it out and release "the voice" -- uhmmm, am not really sure about that. its been a while since i last sang in public, unless you want to include karaoke, but its soo much different. im not totally confident, but i dont want to let them down either.

† geri lamented [+] Wednesday, 30th of March 2005, 23:30 pm †

i gained weight.

around 3 kilos and thats like 7.5 pounds (i guess) and my mom tells me i look fat. waaaaaaaaa.

strange coz i know a lot of people who boasted they actually lost weight in the lenten season. and i had the opposite effect. mama thinks my face looks like "siopao" already (touching face) it does feel much rounder than before.

maybe i should start jogging again. or maybe im just eating more than i should.

sighs, gone are the days when i could just eat and eat and eat and not worry about gaining a pound.

my metabolism is going downhill like my age, not surprising since ill be a quarter of a century old soon

maybe i should take up pole dancing *lols*

oh but in other news, its my parents wedding anniversarry tomorrow (but they celebrated it today), Happy Anniversarry to my parents and may they have many more. love you mama and dad.

and the most important celebration of all. Jesus has risen today!!! Hail to the King! My Hero.

Happy Easter everyone!

† geri lamented [+] Sunday, 27th of March 2005, 21:38 pm †

last year, an older woman came up to me and told me i look like theresa from "fashion", i didnt know what she was talking about, so i asked, theresa who? and she said its the actress in the afternoon tv show she watches, but it was only recently i realized she meant the soap opera "passion" and not with the F. *sighs*

anyways, ive heard some other people saying i looked like her but i ignored the comment. coz everytime someone says to me, "u look like her" or "u look like this girl" when i see the picture or the person they thought i look-like, i could not see any resemblance at all.

but at marissas 25th birthday party last night, she said that while she was watching "Passion" the other day, her 4 yr old daughter mariah blurted out "thats aunti geri ma!" and she was apparently pointing to this "theresa" so curiously, i searched the net and looked for this "theresa" whose real name i found out was lindsay korman-hartley if i really look like her. i showed some of her pics to vikay (who like me have not heard of her before) and she said we have the same smile. that older lady and marissa reckoned we have the same eyes, my parents disgree.

so you be the judge!

but one things for sure, i do wish im as sexy as her :P

† geri lamented [+] Sunday, 20th of March 2005, 19:15 pm †

this morning, i was having a hard time finding some rates for my clients even though the filing was in alphabetical order, for some reason i could not find the company names starting with the letter R because, i coud not remember where R comes in :P

i was flicking thru the pages and id miss it everytime. so i resorted to saying the alphabet out loud and realized R comes before S and T and not after (duh) -_- yeah, you could tell i still use my fingers to calculate something from time to time ahahahahaha

and i was also reading the lease documents of our company and the line "The lessor hereby leases to the lessee" caught my attention. feh! i cant even pronounce it properly hahaha (i sucked with the peter piper exercises before) but yeah that sentence may sound funny but those buggers will generate millions of dollars coz of that word. hmmm

i believe i was having one of those lost in translation days so i decided to go home earlier before i go totally "ape"

but then when i was driving home, there was this black car in front of me which has got yellow or white stickers written all over his rear window that reads: "Blind Man Driving" and i was like huh? but if you read further below, you'd know that he specializes in fixing window blinds, window bling blings and stuff. oh-okay!!!

sighs, semantics semantics and not even true!

† geri lamented [+] Tuesday, 15th of March 2005, 18:42 pm †

i survived st. patricks day :P

went to freo with mavic today to watch the parade, her stepdads the president of the irish community in perth (i think) and was highly involved with the celebration. we were even asked us to join the parade but we thought we'd just watch and enjoy the rest of fremantle instead (and it was rather hot too :P)

anyways, being a self confessed pictorial queen, we took loads of pictures until my camera died on us ahahahaha i think as asians living in oz, its always easier to pretend were a bunch of tourists, coz in effect, it give us lesser inhibitions on taking silly pictures *lols*

unfortunately i cant use that same excuse when pulling some really humilating stunts. asian or not, if youre a klutz, you're a klutz. like today, mavic was motioning me to move closer to the center of the road so she could take a better picture of the people parading, when suddenly she said "geri, there's a snake" and so i turned around and saw this old guy behind me, holding a long snake and i just freaked out and jumped off screaming and stepping on mavics foot (accidentally) and holding on to her like silly, only to find that it was a fake snake, and these jabronisis were laughing at me. mavic and i, were sooo embarrassed but it was really funny we cant blame them :P we even joined them too!

but some men got carried away and continued teasing us afterwards, only to end up volunteering to take our pictures anyway. now thats what you call girl power bwahahahaha.

† geri lamented [+] Sunday, 13th of March 2005, 22:21 pm †

i got this one a long time ago, but it was only now that i can relate to it... hom-hum

the break-up musical journey. *the reader must take note that some stages may not be universally applicable; the whole journey may not even be universally experienced. but then again, you'll never know.

Stage 1: Radiohead's "High and Dry"

The actual breakup. The exact, precise moment the phrase "i'm sorry but, i think we're better off as friends..." or better yet, "i think this relationship is going nowhere..." and so you sing, "don't leave me high, don't leave me dry..."

Stage 2: The Ataris' "Summer Wind Was Always Our Song"

The sinking-in, the absorption of the bitter detail that, yes, you have broken up. "These breakup songs make sense again..." is all too true.

Stage 3: Fountains of Wayne's "Sink to the Bottom"

"I would sink to the bottom with you..."-- the pleading phase. Asking him/her back. A humiliating, self-defeating, pride-vanishing stage.

Stage 4: MXPX's "Middlename" and Typecast's "Forget"

The crying phase. "Emotion is my middlename." and then you just have to sing the part "I wish I never met you, I wish I could forget you no matter what you said..." out loud. And then you just also have to internalize the line, "I remember, how could I forget?" and then the travesty of also internalizing the part that goes, "I guess it's time to say goodbye..."

Stage 5: Bodyjar's "Not the Same"

The dawning of realization that the person you think you knew never was the person you knew--"You're not the same, you've changed..." but then you come to the "...I don't need you anyway" part, which leads you to the next stage...

Stage 6: Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive"

The Anthem for every brokenhearted person. And you sing desperately to yourself, "I will survive...

Stage 7: NOFX's "The Brews"

The stage where you refocus all your time and energy on more relevant things, like politics, for example. Or a night out with friends, with lots and lots of beer. "Oi, oi! We're the Brews! Sporting anti-swastika tattoos!"

Stage 8: No Doubt's "Underneath it All"

The realization of your self-worth. You sing, "If you really love me, underneath it all..."

well it looks like i still have a long way to go. a long way indeed.

† geri lamented [+] Saturday, 12th of March 2005, 00:42 am †

my leg hurtsssss!!! i think i should make an incident report now *lols* and claim for compensation and go on stress leave because i will now be mentally disrupted because of the bruising and scarring that could possibly happen once the grazes heals

† geri lamented [+] Friday, 11th of March 2005, 14:04 pm †

i tripped and fell on the stairs, (2 steps) of our office when i got in today, i forgot my coat (stupid coat) so i went back and must have done a wrong turn or something and got off balance. *poof* down i fell. i tell you it hurt! totally lost my poise O-O, just when i was feeling all pretty in my pink top. duuhhhh i hope no one saw me.

feh! i got some bruises and skin blisters on my right kneee and ankle, my poor leg and my poor shoe *sniff* its got a little chip on the front now, i think it will be joining my other shoe with the broken heel soon. how sad.

† geri lamented [+] Friday, 11th of March 2005, 09:34 am †

finally it is finished.

i now had the closure i was asking for. i am now ready to move on with my life, with confidence and without any regrets coz i know i did all i could...

for the record, id just like to reassure my friends that i am okay. and in saying that, im not at all being "plastic" about it. i really am okay. i know some of you dont believe me at the moment but it is the truth.

im not going to deny that im sad, but the sadness im feeling right now goes with a certain serenity, a sense of inner peace that i had been seeking for, for months.

and with all the support, concern and the love that you guys continue to give me, its not gonna take me long before im 100% back to my happy geri self again :D

thats why i still consider myself blessed. im blessed to have so much, and i know i still have too little to complain about in my life.

am blessed to have such loving parents, who i knew were getting worried about me coz ive been keeping my feelings from them lately, but they respected my silence anyway, i know i hurt them a bit, especially my mom, but after all that, they only have kind words and support for me.

i am blessed to have such loyal friends, who went through all the pain and madness with me, who tried everything to help me, to protect my feelings whilst trying to be honest to me at the same time, (now that was the challenge ahahahaha) i thank my bestfriend vikay for the strength, to ian for the wisdom, to chou for the understanding, to mavic for the compassion, to marissa for the support, to all my friends who were always kind to me, whether i was feeling down or not, thank you.

so yeah, id probably be doing my one last cry tonight and after that, brace yourselves coz the Geri will definitely be doing a return of the comeback, with a vengeance *lolz*

huggles everyone and May God bless you all.

† geri lamented [+] Thursday, 10th of March 2005, 21:45 pm †

i have to watch the latest movie of keanu Reeves, Constantine, not only because it stars keanu but tis curiously the talk of the town in my birth country. apparently the evil had a dialogue in Tagalog (our national language) and said "Papatayin ko sila" which means "im going to kill them" in english.

well its not really amusing if you really think about it. i dont think its nice that our language is an evils dialogue in a foreign movie. keanu or not.

but anyways, its women's day today *yehey*!!!

† geri lamented [+] tuesday, 8th of March 2005, 20:51 pm †

im having problems falling asleep at night. i dont know, ive been doing lots of thinking i suppose. you know like when you get those nights when you really want to sleep but you just cant. *sighs*

maybe i shouldnt eat too much at supper time or when im about to go to bed or something coz its harder to sleep when you're still full right? but my ma saved me some leche flan (caramel custard) yummmmmm. i think she really enjoys dishing out the sweet torture. and earlier i had lunch at marissa's house and she made some pork sinigang (am not suppose to eat pork anymore) but i did anyway (much to mavic's objection)

i hope they stop making things i cant resist.

† geri lamented [+] Monday, 7th of March 2005, 22:54 pm †

hullo everyone!!! i managed to put some more changes and other fun stuff in the blog *yay* :D i do have better things to do with my free time like my room and car for instance, theyre both in severe need of cleaning, but this creative moments rarely come to me lately, so i always take advantage of it everytime :P

actually i was supposed to go out today, but i thought id stay home for a change, ive been a busy Geri-Bee the past few days... on monday i toured my client/friend christie round perth (she's from sydney), tuesday i went to see my friend dawn, then i had my chepmate training in canningvale on wednesday (and got beaten up by josh the same night -_-), went to carousel to accompany mavic on thursday and friday night watched the concert "Roc tha Bloc Tour" the one i won last month (Ja Rule, RUUULLEES) with mavic as well, and then yesterday i had to go to spearwood with marissa and bryan for janets son 1st birthday. (ill post the pics soon) i was told recently that Janet, (like everyone else i know) is also getting married (next month), they wanted me to go with them look for "the wedding gown" but i thought id pass and stay home for a change coz im really exhausted. My body is going to collapse i think if i dont stay put for a day.

but speaking of getting hitched (this ones the opposite), cathy and janet told me this morning that one of their friend that was at the party last night has decided to divorce his wife coz he reckons hes fallen for me. far out!!! how crazy is that? they were like telling me about this guys personal info's already, and that he's a good catch coz hes really "nice" and hes "goodlooking" and "rich" and i was like excuse me? i want to stick to my wholesome image, and i dont think ill ever like the idea of becoming a "kulasisi" or a concubine, the thought of being tagged as a homewrecker is not included in my vocabulary, and the last thing id want is to destroy someone elses marriage -- ive got more respect for myself and for married women in general. and made it clear to them that im not interested in getting envolved in that shit. it was quite disturbing, but cathy rang me up late this afternoon and apologised to me. She said she didnt mean to sound like a pimp and added it was wrong for her to suggest that id entertain a married guy. *sighs*

is it me? or is it me?!!! what the feh? if i dont get some psychotic guys chasing and pulling me over on the road, id get married guys wanting to divorce their wives. is their something wrong with me? waaaaaaaaaa T-T makes me want to do a temper tantrum really. i dont want to loose faith on men you know... but i just dont know why these things keep on happening to me.

but as the cliche goes, if it doesnt kill you, it will make you stronger, so yeah ive decided that ill just focus on more relevant things such as how to save money and or how to be more organized and yeah redesigning my websites too hehe. i made some changes in my official site and our crash-burn site. ive also added a guestbook so feel free to make your presence felt anytime :D

And oh! im beginning to really really love the color plum, maybe coz its autumn already. pink will always be my favorite color but the plum color fascinates me lately, i already bought a plum color shades, bag and ballet wrap, and hopefully i can find some matching shoes as well.

and as you can see, ive also changed the motiff of this site to "of course, of course" PLUM hehe, and the mug theme was inspired by "of course, of course" Graeme ahahaha. by the way, i sort of got even with him on friday, as advised, i hid my mug in my drawer and pasted the "Geri's Mug" label that tracey printed for me *twang* and then i also hid graemes mug under the bottom drawer where he cant possibly reach coz hes too fat to bend down his body and hes just had a knee surgery. i confess i was literally cracking out while i was doing that. and when i told my colleagues what i did they were laughing and said that i was a genius hahahahaha but im feeling a bit guilty (just a little) coz i think he didnt have his cuppa soup that day. hom hum, served him right bwahahahaha. let's all raise our mug to that!

† geri lamented [+] Sunday, 6rd of March 2005, 22:24 pm †

im pooped.

i fell on the ground doing kung fu last night. compliments of josh. he got told off and hes apologised (again). the guy gets carried away most of the times, the more excited he get, the harder he hits, but sh dan contemptously stressed last night that although its good to apply realism when training, but just "up to what point?" is the big question.

i know im subjected to get hurt in kung fu -- it would be unheard of if i dont. but since im also studying the principles of the art, i'd know when the execution of the technique is appropriate or if it was just out right showing off, coz even though were the same belt level, josh forgot to consider the fact that hes twice my size. oh well -- boys. tsk tsk.

i woke up this morning feeling all black and blue with shaky hands and legs. i was late as usual. almost an hour late actually, and our admin manager asked if i could come earlier tomorrow hahahahaha and yeah i forgot my lunch too.

and to top that, bloody Graeme used my mug again, last tuesday, i was going crazy coz i coudnt find my mug (drinking tea is never the same if youre NOT drinking from your mug) only to find he used it, and i told him its my mug and he was like "uhoh well someone used mine" hello? if you cant find your mug it doesnt mean you can just use anyone elses. and we do have a set of corporate mugs for our visitors to use, surely he can use one of those.

i know its only a friggin mug, but im very particular with mugs. and its a special mug coz my mom bought it for me, maybe if it wasnt graeme that used it, i probably wont mind. but he's quite filthy and slubby and very untidy -_- you should have seen my colleagues reaction when i told them that graeme had my mug all along. they were like "graeme used your mug? yucckkk!!!" "gross, hes a pig" and those comments were even coming from my male colleagues okay. so it was quite revolting for me. and it doesnt help that were not really in good terms most of the times.

and last time he didnt wash my mug, he left it on traceys desk, the nerve. so i had to take the mug to the kitchen and my state manager said i should run hot water all over it for 5 minutes (which i did) and i also poured some diswasher liquid on the mug and left for the cleaner to wash it completely.

today hes decided to use it again, i dont know if hes doing it on purpose. but he's face is probably THIS thick its like deadmatology 101, its like talking to a brick wall. i confronted him along the corridors, and i believed everyone heard it.

geri: you're using my mug again!
graeme: i didnt know its your mug
geri: i just told you the other day, that its my mug. its my mug!

but he just turned his back on me like he did the other day. grrrrrrrrr what an a$Shole. hes lucky he's old already. Tracey thinks hes got a vendetta on me. im aware of that. well if he thinks im just gonna let him get away with it, then he can jump off the lake. and as expected he didnt wash it again. he left it sitting on the sink. so i had to do the same thing, ran hot water and poured loads of diswasher liquid all over my poor mug, for everyone to see, including him. and if he doesnt get the sarcasm behind it, then i dont know anymore, im definitely hiding my mug from now on. *inhales and exhales* he has this ability to bring the worst in me without even trying too hard. you can tell im having a bad day. sighs. i cant wait for him to retire really! oh well hes only got a few more days to go. hes not the only one thats counting the days till he's off patricks thats for sure.

i dont know if this is karma. coz yesterday, i pulled a nasty trick to tracey our receptionist. i think most of you got that email i sent where you see this car going on the curve and disappears behind the trees. since tracey cant open video attachments on her computer, i rang her up and told her that i have a cool video to show her.

she came to my office smiling and excited and when i told her to watch the video very closely she did too, but as soon as the ghost poppped up, she jumped as in JUMPED liked she bounced almost a meter from my computer screen, and i was laughing my head off and she was like, "you're horrible, nasty girl" but she was laughing with me afterwards. that was really funny. i could feel that she wanted to shave my hair off that moment

hopefully ill have a better luck tonight. hom-hum, is it time to go home yet?

† geri lamented [+] Thursday, 3rd of March 2005, 14:397 pm †