The Blair Witch Project. Shown four Sundays ago. The genre is Documentary in style. Not outwardly scary, though brings on feelings of extreme terror. The threat is the forest. The voices in the night. Cries for help. Hopelessly lost. The lead female character has resigned herself to the fact death is inevitable, after a very heartfelt and real video message to her family, companions and next of kin. She apologizes for how sorry she is, that it was her "project", putting the blame squarely on herself. It's a pathetic tearful epilogue, and if it wasn't a complete work of fiction it would be a scandal.
The forest is not such a bad place, really. I feel very calm in forests, at night I would also be calm. Nature has a very settling effect on me, but real every day life is a different prospect all together.
I asked a friend of mine just recently how he felt restricted. He answered that he lives in a world of fear, ruled and dictated by an exploitative work place practice and at home it was the routine and rhythm of family life. Free time is scarce and quality time with his partner the same.
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Fear of the ordinary. Fear of the world. Fear of Life.
Like Blair Witch, voices of the past can bring into light fears that have laid dormant for years. Insecurity or change in our jobs, for some including myself can bring on the worst of fears. Thinking, "well if I lose this" your mindset has already visualized you one step from the street. The slave mentality to the wage and a dull job is usually fear of a change. The thought of challenging yourself is too much for some. I know several people who cannot and will not work. Even the most minor role brings on severe stress and depression. These people of course have a mental illness, coping with ordinary life is difficult enough.
The threat of war, terrorism, monsters with rags on their heads destroying skyscrapers. It's on T.V every day, in your face, unsettling you if you let it.
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Having a relationship can be so fulfilling with constant benevolence and emotional security, but it is just those factors that bring the insecurity, pining and loss leading to breakdown and dissolution. I don't believe it's the human nature or the naturalness of a partnership that bring into play these problems, but outside factors influencing it.
In my own life anxiety and fear has been a constant for as long as I can remember. At times I can be in a state of such total bliss and peace for days on end, believing falsely that I have mastered a so called "enlightenment'. Without my knowing I find myself dragged back to the usual frenetic way of life I know and hate so well. I start to blame everything around me for the way things have gone or about to go. I know damn well I created this life, right down to my own physical condition.
The night before I was about to have both my hips replaced, I was calm, resigned to the enevitable, though the year long buildup to that day was full of pathetic self-pity and burning anger for my deteriorating health. The recovery in hospital made me realize what state of mind I had been in. The incredible staff at The Avenue Hospital Prahran had said how strong I really was, though my focus was on the negative. In the end I had been transformed, reborn physically and mentally. I was and still am very lucky boy indeed.
The dark and disturbing presence within our midst is of our own creation. If you let it jump up and hack into your brain- then die, die as a pitiful and weak individual. By finding courage pushing yourself beyond your pathetic and selfish needs, you can send the fear arse over tit. I am of course still dealing with several "issues" every day. I no longer care about the "controllers" never getting involved in there agenda.
I can take or leave it.